It's been a while

It's been a while since I keep track of my weight. I lost 5lbs. and Im happy. Im now just eating the right amount of food, but I need more exercise. my tummy got slimmer a bit, the coffee helped me, but I stopped this week so my body can breathe, I dont wanna die yet you know. The blog "PLUMP" is kinda help me deal with my weight issues. And look Demi Lovato gained weight and she's fine with it. I hope I can accept the real me this time. Sana I im always in the mood to look my best. :)

I HATE MYSELF

Ok so since no ONE is probably visiting this blog because it's all for me, Im going to pour my heart out in writing. Here I am tweeting and read a blog of Orange Tuazon my friend in Fb and learned that she had weight loss issues too in the past and now she's in a good shape I was so inspired. I hate myself right now for letting this happen to me, for reaching what 140 lbs. ?? I really lost count.  It's pretty lame and it's all MY FAULT. I really wanna lose weight for myself. I watched The biggest loser and I can totally relate. They can do it and why can't I? start of by cutting on chips and drinking water instead of everything, take the long way... actually i know all the drills but I just lack dedication and discipline I really hate myself right now I wish I could confide this to someone who's experiencing the same issues as mine. I lived half of my life looking like this, all of the people calling me names when I pass the street until it came to the point where I became numb to what they say and I think that's wrong, I should never get used to this kind of lifestyle because this is not what I wanted, this is not my own definition of ME. I wish someone is there to help me all the way, help me make it through. I pray to God for that person I know he/she is there somewhere. Maybe this is the reason why I always feel like there's always a hole in my heart, something in my life is missing, why is it just now that I realized it? I had million attempts of dieting and I don't succeed in any. WHY?? And when will I start doing something? Im talking about myself here, only ME can solve this. Lord please enlighten me, guide me.  I really don't know what to do. I hate myself really. I should do something while it's not too late.. whaaah! somebody HELP me stick to my goal!! PLEEEEEAAAASSEE.

xoxo,
-cj

Trend Report by xoCJ

It's been a while fellas! Oh well here I am bored and vanity keeps on hitting me so I decided to update MY blog. :) So here are the Spring trends for the year 2011.

P.S. So since this is a trend report, I won't be adding my personal stuffs and because Im too lazy to take some pictures. Haha. Imma  go create another post for that!

First up is my ever favorite Zebra print especially my loving Zebra print..Well I have zebra print flats which are so cute and I got for a reasonable price! cute! :)

Oh I wouldn't mind bringing this one to school! :)

And then turbans!! I remember that in high school I used to wear different head bands everyday, oh well that was before Blair Waldorf stepped in the picture! That was when I refrained from wearing em coz everyone's wearing headband already, I just lost interest at headbands at that point, but I'm still buying cute ones once in a while though. Like the leopard print I bought a few months ago, I wasn't able to wear it often though. Shocked that my mom actually have a few turbans, Imma go get em. Haha! I actually want the black one in the second picture, hmpft, Ill see if I have time to create one. :) I saw one that is on sale online, I'll get one! yipee!

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Next up are Lace-up flats or boyish flats! at first I was like EEWWW!!! I.Can't.Buhlieve.Itt!! I have loads of like that, which are from my aunts in Chicago and Im not even wearing them! Can't believe they are so in! I cant imagine myself wearing one, but well they're So in so..

And then, plastic and colorful boat bags and accessories!! Don't they look so cute? haha.. They are instant mood boosters! Whenever I see neon or colorful things I'll suddenly feel light and the child in me is kickin' out. :)

I fell in love with this one the instant I saw it! :)

oh I have one in white! SO cute. :)

marc by marc jacobs

arrghh nail art!!!

boat tote by Tommy hilfiger

marc by marc jacobs is also one of the trends!

Next up, White jeans!!!!

The long skirt! Goodbye mini! Hello maxi!

Ditsy Florals.. Werk!

Color blocking! Anything colorful and bold!

  colorful sporty thingy..

End of the story! I love everything! almost have simmilar stuffs in my closet! Now time to raid the closet!! :)

xoxo,
cj

Goals for MMXI

Im backk!!!! Havent updated my page for a while now.. Since it’s the start of the year, maybe it’s good to post some things I wanna achieve (more of have) this year, and I’ll start with my obsessions— SHOES!!!

Nude pumps are a major major part of my wish list, I don't really care about the label, as long as I have one. haha.. Been looking for a good pair lately, but I can’t seem to find one yet, but Ill definitely look harder!!

Next, glittery pumps!! uhm I just like things that sparkles! They look so lovely. haha.. I already have two, one in gold and black, they look so cute, forgot to take pictures for this entry is just last minute. Bet I can buy the Steve Madden one for I love the brand, used to be the brand of my school shoes when I was in grade school.

Next is Alberto Guardiani’s Lipstick Heels.. They look so cute that I want to pick em up and apply them on my lips *kidding* :) Even Katy Perry is sporting them. :)

Finally, Colorful pumps! They look so cute, don't they? They can easily brighten up any outfit. Just add em to your boring outfit and you're ready to go!!


Looking forward to a great MMXI and to having this kind of shoes.
Great year to all of you! Have a rockin MMXI!!
xoxo,
-cj